Struggling with Reality - The Idealist's Dilemma

I have always been that idealistic and ambitious type of person. During the hours of past midnight when I couldn't sleep, my mind gets so busy formulating lots of ideas. Some of them have been real; while many are still awaiting to be fulfilled. In my mind, I have built an entire world that I want for myself - an ideal world with an ideal quality of life,  ideal things, and an ideal self.

It's not only on those hours that I become that idealist. It's also when I'm placed on a difficult situation in life. Before I even think of probable solutions, I would think of how that situation could have never happened if ever I were in better conditions. "This would not have happened if ever I had this, or if ever I had that." These things pop out on my mind; and I would then imagine myself evading all the difficulties. Alibis, complaints - these are indications when I couldn't accept my own reality. It is always in that cycle that creates the struggle; and it worsens if you don't break out of it. This process is recurring but there is only one thing to remember just to break out of that struggle. Reality will always work as it is, and not how you want it to be. And that is something we all need to accept. Sometimes we have to abandon our ideals and accept our own reality. You have to put your focus back into the real world because dwelling on your ideal world only wastes your time. Instead of worrying on how your ideal world is so opposite with the real world, the best way is to find solutions to your difficulties, and do all what you can to improve your condition with reality.

Yes, I am an idealist, and I am struggling with reality. Well, I may have mentioned to you on dealing with such struggle; and it's easy to think I could easily fend off the struggles in my life. But there really are things easy to say but difficult to do; and that's another struggle I face - living up to my own words. Anyway, this is different, it's about my ambitious self  being so persistent and restless. I know my ideal world may be constantly expanding, but actually my real life is not even progressing. I always imagine keeping myself busy and productive during the summer but I always end up in this monotonous cycle, wasting all the days away. And that's what I hate - being unproductive. There are actually a lot of things that I envision myself doing but some are just not possible. I have been wanting to earn this summer; but I couldn't find a way. I wanted to enroll and learn on some summer program; but it was too expensive. I wanted to go out with friends; but I haven't heard from them. Well, guess it's still that typical summer - stay at home all day, sit in front of the computer, and do some house chores. That's my reality and I still haven't found a way to change it. I feel like I am wasting all my youth away. And it's like everyday I am waiting for a better tomorrow that might never come. Until now, it's still a struggle I am facing but I have resorted in doing some other things to keep myself busy. And of course one of those is writing for my blogs. I am quite contented with the work I have done so far even though I am not certain  whether they get views. But hopefully though, before this summer ends, I hope I will find something meaningful.

In this world, whether we like it or not, there really are factors in the real world that hinder us from achieving our ideals. And as much as how we want things to be, in life there's not a 100% yield for our ideals to be translated into reality. However, this doesn't mean that you have to give up all your ambitions. There is nothing wrong with dreaming for a better life; just avoid getting too depressed worrying on all things you do not have. You should also appreciate the good things that you are blessed with. Happiness and contentment may is not dependent on just one aspect. We should also remember that all of us face different realities in our lives. It's not only you who are having struggles, other people are also having their own adversities, which may be greater. Achieving your ambitions is not an overnight work; one day, through time and your efforts, you might probably attain your own ideals. And if you do so, do not forget to help the others who couldn't do it on their own.