It's easy to feel bitter to miss out on something you know you really aimed for. As much as how you'd want to fend them off, all the questions still manage to cloud your thoughts. You try to contemplate on whether your efforts were all in vain, or whether you should've aimed higher than you did when it all mattered. Perhaps it was a fault in your part, or it could be, yet again, the ever cruel fate that took you as its helpless victim. I suppose right now it's easy to think so.
When you know you've done your part and somehow things still didn't seem to fall into place in the end, you can't help but feel defeated. "Maybe that's how life goes" - you tell yourself again; but then you remember you've been here before. You picked the pieces of your broken self up, and eventually got yourself together. You molded yourself into your best possible form but somehow all those didn't prove to be enough. It's all over now; history's course can no longer be altered. You didn't exactly lose but you know you didn't win either. You're still standing there in disbelief as the ground slowly tries to pull you under. Chaos - it's the nihilistic chaos that awaits below, waiting patiently for you to fall through.
In the midst of it all, you are alive. You should be thankful for that at least. But maybe you still can't get your head around it because know you definitely had more ambition than that. So what's next for you now? I don't even know; but I'm fairly certain that life's not yet over for you. There are still unexplored lands waiting to be conquered. You see, opportunity lies on the unknown. It may be daunting when you think about it but you know it's a place for you to thrive. You can't just hide in your dungeon and wallow in self-pity for the rest of your life. Who knows, the next new odyssey may bring out the best in you? Well I guess none of us really knows what to expect out there. It's your task to find that out.
When you know you've done your part and somehow things still didn't seem to fall into place in the end, you can't help but feel defeated. "Maybe that's how life goes" - you tell yourself again; but then you remember you've been here before. You picked the pieces of your broken self up, and eventually got yourself together. You molded yourself into your best possible form but somehow all those didn't prove to be enough. It's all over now; history's course can no longer be altered. You didn't exactly lose but you know you didn't win either. You're still standing there in disbelief as the ground slowly tries to pull you under. Chaos - it's the nihilistic chaos that awaits below, waiting patiently for you to fall through.
In the midst of it all, you are alive. You should be thankful for that at least. But maybe you still can't get your head around it because know you definitely had more ambition than that. So what's next for you now? I don't even know; but I'm fairly certain that life's not yet over for you. There are still unexplored lands waiting to be conquered. You see, opportunity lies on the unknown. It may be daunting when you think about it but you know it's a place for you to thrive. You can't just hide in your dungeon and wallow in self-pity for the rest of your life. Who knows, the next new odyssey may bring out the best in you? Well I guess none of us really knows what to expect out there. It's your task to find that out.
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