Remember September

So why keep thinking when none of these make sense already? You've had enough but you keep going back. You're going on endless circles in the hopes of finding what you lost but still there's not any relief nor redemption in store for you. Why'd you even go through all of that just for it to not matter in the end? There's no seeing through this mist so turn back now, pace back down the road you've traveled before.

It's when you put too much value on something external, that when it goes to ruin, you crumble along with it. Now you have to pick yourself up from the rubble because there's no rescue mission on the way. So crawl out of this with your strength, or what remains of it. Walk again and keep on going; the rest of the world goes on regardless of where you are. You've sunk again but you're not staying here for long; you're not condemned to the depths forever.

 

Death and Self-Reclamation

So where did this take you? Here you are again. No surprise at all on how this ended. You've abandoned who you are and lost yourself to false promises. Why did you even bother at all? Have you forgotten what you're condemned to? There's no escaping that. You never learn, do you? You tried to venture into something new in the hope of finding yourself but this wasn't the way and it never has been. In the end, it was your fault for believing. So where do you run to now? Where do you go when your world's in total ruin? What a shame for you, troubled soul.

Return, return to depths again. Find the pieces that you lost and confront the inner chaos tormenting you. And as you go along, identify the inadequacies you need to reinforce. Let the weakest parts of yourself burn away; those that cannot be fixed have to die. For the sake of your own preservation, kill whatever threatens to consume you. Rebuild the fallen stronghold, protect yourself and those which you value. It is only through this way that you can reclaim yourself. As you emerge from the mud, breathe this new air and let the light shine on you. Live now, live again.